Was I not curious enough when I met your parents and noticed they did not touch each other?
Was I not curious enough when the inconsistencies started?
When the lies surfaced?
When your excuses overcame logic?
When our arguments began?
Was I not curious enough when I laid down my ultimatum?
When for over fifteen years, we moved from state to state, job to job?
When I continued to live as if nothing had happened?
Did I not ask the right questions?
When the paychecks became erratic, and your time at home grew longer.
Your work hours shorter.
When I visited you at your job and learned you had not worked there in over a month?
Did I believe because you were gentler than most -- never raised your hand or voice -- you would change?
Was I not curious enough when the police knocked on the door?
Did I not ask the right questions when I posted bail?
When you appeared in court?
Was I not curious enough during the next three years of calm that followed?
With steady paychecks? Promotions? Stability?
Was I not curious enough when the creditors called?
When there were no more job interviews?
No more jobs?
Did I accommodate?
Shrink myself into the marriage?
Was I ...?